Top 10 Dieting Essentials

Do you know how to ‘diet’? If you are reading this, hopefully you’re interested in kick-starting a healthier lifestyle- and I’m here to help you do it!

Let’s start with the definition of ‘diet’ according to Merriam-Webster dictionary:

"...the kinds of food that we normally consume or our habitual  nourishment, either individually or as a community." 

For example, a Mediterranean diet or a vegetarian diet would fit into this definition. My goal here is to help us understand the essentials to make healthier lifestyle choices- however, we all have our personal journey! So, you might just want to lose a little weight, feel lean, get fit, reduce volume, have more muscle, tighten your problem areas…, or perhaps you need to fix a bigger issue (think high cholesterol, vitamin deficiency, out of whack hormones, or recuperating from another health issue).

No matter the reason, we all need basic tools and nutritional knowledge and information to be able to make these changes. With a bit of education, some trial and error and a whole lot of listening to one’s own body, absolutely anyone can adapt to a long term diet that will resolve issues such as the ones listed above.

My key words here: Long-term.

It’s important to highlight that this is not a crash course on how to make your cellulite disappear or how to diet using restrictions, like intermittent fasting, to lose weight. Trust me, at my age my cellulite won’t disappear and I would love to take a special pill to fix it. We have all heard about the magic diets that help you burn fat and lose half your person in a matter of weeks. And sadly, our society forces unrealistic expectations of skinny, beautiful, fit and muscular onto us 24/7. But, we all need realistic individual goals that are 100% personalized. Every sexy body out there (with all it’s functions) is very different and unique. While we have evidence of fad diets being mostly successful short-term, it’s also factual that most crash diets fail long-term.

I have put together a list of essentials to get started on living a healthier life. At the end you’ll also find a list of books, podcasts and apps to help you reach your goals!

Be forewarned that my motto first and foremost (even if it’s number 11 on the list) is to aspire to love yourself and your body albeit with a bit of no-budge pudge around the mid section. This is much more personal, but is possible by being active, by creating space for fun activities and sports you love, by eating mostly healthy & fresh food,and by listening to your body and what makes it feel good & happy.

*Please note that every point will not pertain to every individual as there are always a variety of factors to consider. If you’d like a consult with a nutritionist, you can click on my contact page. Please consult with your doctor before making critical diet changes.

My TOP TEN DOs of Dieting:

1) Get informed. Seems silly, but the first step is educating yourself to personalize your diet over time. Follow some dietitians & nutritionists via Instagram (you can follow me too and check out who I follow), read a few recommended books (below), download a few apps (also below) and take your time understanding the basics of nutrition.

2) Learn to read labels. Yes, check the ingredients of every product you buy at the store- sounds tedious at first, but overtime it becomes easier as you’ll get to know go-to products. A simple rule, if the ingredients list is extra long with weird additives or words that you are not familiar with, don’t buy it. Get natural stuff! The great thing about whole foods- fruit, vegetables, whole-grain cereal, legumes, and things like seeds and nuts don’t need a label scan- it’s the ONLY ingredient and it’s a whole and natural food.

3)Avoid sugar and processed food. So, following up labels, anything overly processed, like certain baked goods, wraps, chips, pre-made dips & sauces, sweets & cakes, canned & processed meats, etc. are probably full of sugar, sodium, and/or additives, and other gross and scary things. Please, for the love of (input your god), do not buy these things and have them around the house. Unfortunately, sugar is the devil. And it is extremely addictive. AND, it hides under the name of many things: i.e. fructose, glucose, lactose, etc. Check labels- if the first ingredient is sugar- don’t buy it.

4) Choose Quality Over Quantity. We are so obsessed with calorie-counting we forget that empty calorie foods can spike insulin and make us bulk up. Think low-fat or low cal cheese and dairy products, or products that brag about being “sugar-free” or “low-cal” or “natural” and healthy. Most the times these items are stripped of nutritional value. I always eat full fat greek yogurt (no sugar) and natural whole fat cheese and butter when I eat it. If i have an extra scoop of natural, organic peanut butter, I’m less guilty about it then, say, eating sugar free dark chocolate or processed peanut butter with hydrogenated corn syrup and palm oil. Also, take step 2 as the rule of thumb on quality food. Canned, processed, stuffed-with-additives, or long shelf-life products are not ideal.

5) Use Portion Control. Use measuring cups to get familiar with normal portions. Eat at home and serve your meals on smaller plates. We live in an excess world with extra big servings for everything. You probably only need half, and the extra food causes blood sugar to spike and fat storage to turn on. If you feel really tired after a meal, it could be that you’re eating too much. For example, a portion of protein at meal time is appx the size of the palm of your hand. Not that big , right?

6) Move. Exercise, of course, has incredible impacts on long-term health, both mentally and physically. We know the science behind exercise- so find activities you like, try new things, be creative and experiment until you find what fits. I always change up the sports I do every so often to not get bored Also, it helps spike your metabolism and turn on fat burn to alternate between different high heart rate activities because your body, like a well-oiled machine, becomes accustomed to the same sports and “hits a wall”. Keep finding different ways to PUSH.

7) Hydrate. There is a lot of back and forth controversy on how much water is enough- but I drink 3-4L a day or more in the summer with heavy exercise. It flushes out toxins and keeps your brain and digestive tract hydrated. If you feel tired, drink a glass of water. If you feel constipated, drink a glass of water with lemon juice. If you feel thirsty, it’s too late- you’re already dehydrated. Literally, drink tons of water.

8) Sleep. A good night’s sleep is an absolute must. Go to bed before 11 p.m., eat a light dinner, stay away from blue light devices at least an hour before hitting the hay, and stick to this routine as much as possible. Too often tiredness pushes us to overeat, be lazy at mealtime, makes small stress big, and creates brain fog.

Check in with you circadian rhythm- sleep when the sun goes down & wake up when the sun comes out. Difficult work hours? Then at least get 7-8 hours in a very dark room. The American Journal of Epidemiology has found a strong link between exposure to even low levels of light while sleeping, and symptoms of depression. Not to mention good quality sleep in the dark facilitates hormone production.

Eating 2-4 hours before bed is also key to a regular sleep pattern. Keep in mind your body enters repair mode at 11 p.m. and 3 a.m.

9) Stop Obsessing. Guys, moderation is key. I mean, too much restriction or obsession in the beginning will definitely lead to breaking big time rules early on. Most people, biologically, are not machines with extreme will power (especially women with a menstrual cycle). If you’re trying to make healthier choices to lose weight, have a cheat meal once a week, or even one day a week in the beginning. But eventually you’ll feel that this meal doesn’t feel as good over time, especially if it’s really unhealthy.

10) Personalize your diet. Ok, I know I kinda mentioned this but this is the part that will take the most time- and it should be the enjoyable part which is figuring out what works for you! I’d recommend starting a food journal in the beginning and writing down everything you eat. See below on books & apps to help “get-to-know you” and your needs. Also, a quick consult for blood work with your doctor will rule out any more critical health issues and a consult with nutritionist would be ideal in figuring out what you need according to your age, gender, height, weight, BMI, race, etc

So my absolute must on my list for ways to get Fit and Healthy is my point number 11. I know it’s not in the top ten, but it should be part of a bigger picture- taking care of your brain & emotions. After all, I’m still a yogi

11) Self-love. Yup, I said it. If you can’t love yourself and find contentment, how would any of this be possible? For me I cherish self-discovery through yoga. It’s also a double whammy, because not only did I go through a lot of healing that helped me take better care of myself, I also was toning, stretching, and moving my body throughout the process. I recommend finding your self-esteem and lift it to the stars- therapy, self-help and self-care books, group therapy, meet-ups, online forums, sports clubs, etc. Your weight-loss or urgent health-issues, surprisingly, are not usually the driving force behind diet changes. Many times the root of it all comes from trauma, emotional distress, stress, anxiety, depression, and other psychological factors.

So in self-love, we are learning to reduce anxiety, stress, trauma and this “go-go-go” mentality that beats us up on a day-to-day basis. Being able to slow down and really relax and pamper oneself is part of healing your mental and physical health.


There are so many other little things that are valuable to say: avoid too much alcohol & caffeine; eat a variety of seasonal fruit and veg; regulate food and exercise with menstrual cycle if you are a woman; make small substitutions for your food weaknesses with healthy alternatives… the list goes on! But for now, our main focus really needs to be in the top 10 (em, 11) points listed above!


As promised here is some educational material and tools to get us started:

Books & Podcasts

  • “Womancode” and “In the Flow” by Alisa Vitti. If you’re a woman, figure out what your menstrual cycle really is. Learn to synch your cycle with food, exercise, work, and even communication (meetings at work or talking to your partner)
  • “Superfood” by Darien Olien: Great info on top ways to stay healthly, like eating organic, choosing the good kinds of water. Also, check out his podcast called “The Darien Olien Show” and the mini-series on Netflix with Zac Efron called “Down to Earth.”
  • “Dhru Purohit Podcast” by Dhru Purohit. This podcast formerly known as The Broken Brain brings guests to talk about all things wellness, medicine, and mindset.
  • “Ram Dass Here and Now Podcast”. Follow this guru’s journey to enlightenment with over 180 excerpts from lectures over the course of his life.
  • “The Betty Body” by Stephanie Estima. Another women’s book on intuitive eating, all things hormones, and improving one’s sex life.
  • Books by Mark Hyman: “Food: What the Heck Should I Eat?” or “The Pegan Diet”. An American physician whose backs food as funtional medicine.
  • Goop Podcast and mini-series on Netflix: Like Mark Hyman & Drhu Purohit, Gwen Paltrow’s Goop dynasty has brought in loads of interesting medical professionals, doctors, natural healers, and yoguis to discuss all matters of health, healing, and well-being.


  • Insight Timer: this free meditation app is great for timing your own meditation or following free guided meditations in your local language.
  • Wellness Coach: Like Insight Timer, but a little bit fancier with a price. You can also watch and follow mini yoga, breathing, strength, or cardio classes, take courses, do challenges, and read up on nutrition. It has an entire section dedicated to nutrition!
  • The Wim Hoff Method: Haven’t heard of Wim Hoff yet? Expert in unique breathing methods to ease stress, pain, and anxiety, he was also featured in the Goop Series for his ice showers, ice baths and ice swims- check out the benefits.
  • Downdog: A yoga & HIIT app combined!
  • AllTrails: Find a good hiking trail nearby no matter where you are in the world.
  • Google Fit: If you are an android user like me, then iFit isn’t an option. Find any app that marks and measures your daily steps- it will probably mark any and all exercise you do in a day- it’s a good way to check in and make sure you aren’t too sendentary.
  • MyFlo: (or any period tracker for women): If you are a woman and you haven’t started tracking your flow- DO IT NOW! Your menstrual cycle is a HUGE indicator of your health- meaning, long, painful, heavy periods or spotting, or inconsistent periods are huge red flags that’s something off with your hormones (which could be a reference to diet & exercise).

To be continued….

Remember guys, life is about BALANCE- I’ll say it over and over too- we can find balance in Yoga, balance in the the work/free-time quantum, balance in sorrow and happiness, and also balance in the choices we make with food and exercise. The secret really isn’t a secret- no matter what your dietary goals are, you’re going to have to think big picture, life-long, lifestyle changes rather than crash diets or week-long detoxes.

I hope this helps get you jump-started on a brand new healthy way of thinking!

Namaste 🙂

Discovering Female Sexuality

Everything began the day I saw that Polaroid picture. I must have been about 13 and I was wearing a bikini. I remember looking at this picture and for the first time becoming self-aware and criticizing my transforming pre-pubescent body into womanhood. I didn’t like what I saw: a chubbier, sillier, more awkward and almost teenager version of myself was in this photo.

I thought, “Who is this girl? But, how did she end up like this? Why did I not like what I saw?”

How can I change? I’ll do ANYTHING to change.”

It was my first critical self-assessment on my body- comparing myself to what I saw in the magazines, on TV, and the people in my immediate day-to-day surroundings. I mean, I knew I had gone through some changes- I had boobies now and I had some hairs sprouting up in some unexpected places. I had a rough idea about puberty through school but I did not have the household where my parents sat me down to talk about the birds and the bees. My parents were relatively quiet about all topics related to sex and sexuality which I don’t believe to be very out of ordinary for that time. However, I do believe this is a serious error that parents can make, normal or not in our culture. Like many young girls, I needed someone to sit me down and walk me through what adolescence would be like and what transformations my body would take on. I needed definitions on some of life’s most valuable lessons which include love, sex, and my own female sexuality.

I began to understand some of these things through passing with friends which was mostly giggling while learning the meanings of new words like “blow job” or “doggy-style”. But we were taught to be ashamed of sex and sexual freedom. We were taught as women to hide our monthly flow, and that our periods were (and are) something “gross” and taboo. We had to be ashamed about sexuality & our natural bodily functions because of the patriarchal system we live in, designed around a lot of toxic masculinity. My own awkward experiences only left me feeling even more confused and unsure that this new womanly body was attached to my head. I had so many unanswered and embarrassing questions and no one to direct them to. Even more terrifying were our public school Sex Ed classes, which really only informed us of what horrible STDs we could contract if we didn’t wear condoms.

Take the female clitoris for example. Did you know that the entire organ actually looks like this:

Clitoris organ

It isn’t just a small bulb hiding under the female labia- this organ extends quite completely around the vaginal opening and the urethra and can even be compared to the male’s sex organ in terms of overall size and span. The only difference might be that it is internal while a penis is mostly external.

Did you know that we did not learn the actual anatomy of a female clitoris until 29 years ago?

In “The Clitoris, Uncovered: An intimate History” by Rachel E. Gross published in the Scientific American Journal:

In the history of sexual anatomy, the clitoris has long been dismissed, demeaned, and misunderstood. (Fun fact: when a French physician dissected this organ for the first time in 1545, he named it membre honteux—“the shameful member”—and declared its sole purpose to be urination. The earlier origins of the word are murky. Clitoris comes from the Greek kleitoris, which has been translated as both “little hill” and “to rub,” suggesting an ancient play on words.)…

What is crazy is that, starting with the ancient Greeks, it took humans more than 2,000 years to develop this understanding—despite the fact that about half of the population has a clitoris. Though female anatomy has not changed all that much, our understanding of it sure has. Throughout history, the clitoris has been lost, found and lost again, with male anatomists jostling one another over who deserves credit for its “discovery.” Yet the full clitoris is still inadequately portrayed in most anatomy textbooks.

” …[In the early 2,000s] O’Connell compared the clitoris to an iceberg: beneath the surface, it was 10 times the size most people thought it was and boasted two to three times as many nerve endings as the penis. And its shape—part penguin, part insect, part spaceship—was a marvel that could only be appreciated in three dimensions.

How is it possible that it took us so long to discover the source of all female pleasure? And why have we discarded the notion that we are allowed to rejoice in the female orgasm and continue to openly investigate our sexual stimuli? After all, the idea behind embracing your body, your pleasure and your orgasms is directly linked to improving overall health and relieving stress. In Medical News Today, in an article by Janet Brito, Ph.D called “Everything you need to know about Orgasms,” she explains:

Several hormones that are released during orgasm have been identified, such as oxytocin and DHEA; some studies suggest that these hormones could have protective qualities against cancers and heart disease. Oxytocin and other endorphins released during male and female orgasm have also been found to work as relaxants.”

Sophia Wallace has an excellent Ted talk on educating the public on all things female sexuality, the clitoris, and common misnomers of our female parts, as well as her own integration of art to bring space and attention to this very ignored topic of discussion (see below).

In continuation: Why are we afraid of accurate and appropriate sexual education? Is it really too much to ask to embrace the beauty in a woman’s monthly flow and her female parts? Isn’t there a better way to be with our kids and talk about our up-coming sexuality and the beautiful changes that will take place in their bodies?

13-year-old me looking at my changed, female body in a picture was only the tip of the iceberg. I spent another 17 years just trying to figure this all out- I didn’t know my own body parts fully, how could I understand sexuality? And not only that, I was beginning to be aware then of so many things I suddenly had to take on as a woman in this world. Looking back, I wish someone could have told me how to step forward with more security and given me insight on all the essential details like female bodily changes; the ins and outs of menstruation; our wondrous cyclical hormonal alterations (the female brain is a damn machine); and sexual desire, sexual pleasure, and the female orgasm.

Here is another great TED talk by Sarah Barmak on improving our education on female sexuality:

Just opening up honest conversation and talking on details as cited in the video would have been leaps and bounds for my young self.

But my life path on self-discovery (which in it’s totality includes all the the aforementioned topics) was slow and sometimes painful. I did not achieve my first orgasm until I was at least 25 years old. And I was married for a good 3 years before that occurred. And in no way was it anyone else’s fault but my own: I did not know who I was, what I liked, what was considered respectable and good for me in and out of the bedroom. I was also deeply self-conscious of my body and had not raised enough awareness about both mental and physical health to even fathom what was good and healthy on sexuality.

From 13 to my late 20s, I was ashamed of what I saw most of the time. I felt embarrassed to take my clothes off, afraid to ask questions, unsure even if my body was “normal” or not. And not to mention nakedness in any form is totally censored on national US television and required to always be secret (which is crazy to me considering the most normal thing right in front of us is our human body and all its parts!). Think about this: in high school in the US it is very normal for people to shower in bathing suits in public showers rather than be completely nude in front of a stranger. So, quite normally, the disconnection I felt with my body was even further influenced by everything around me, including unrelenting pressure from society to have be thin and beautiful and perfect, as if this was a requirement of female beauty. Of course, I felt I was none of those things either- I wouldn’t dare undress!

I developed very low self-esteem which tortured me through university and contributed to an eating disorder I battled with for another many, many years. I obsessed more about my weight and appearance during my early 20s than even my grades or my soccer scholarship. Most of my sexual encounters were then belittled into one-night stands and contacts and escapades that were superficial or only seeking out attention. This “promiscuity” only made me feel worse, as societal standards on female promiscuity is still considered “wrong”.

Even today, I am still marked by moments of my past. It was, and still is, very difficult to let go of cultural or societal “norms”, as well as let go of my own past insecurities to feel free, natural and sexy during intimacy. I had to go through many self-inflicted abusive patterns and also endure some toxic and abusive relationships to get to a breaking point to really take care of myself. And this low-point was a catalyst for real self-care in every aspect: healthy relationships, safe & happy sexuality, taking care of my body through proper nutrition and exercise, and most importantly: valuing my mental health to be able to respect every aspect of myself.

So, I challenge our educational systems, our parents of today, and especially young teenagers who get a chance to read this: break down the walls of conventional sexual education. My message to any young pre-teen, teen, or even young adult: start asking questions and do real investigation. Go to a local clinic where you feel safe and get advice, and ask for safe sex tips. Find support groups or blogs to share and discover sexual interests in a safe and healthy environment (warning: the Internet can be very misleading). Explore your intimacy and sexuality on your own terms and don’t be misled by pornography which is not what real sex looks like. Consult with an adult that you trust, or contact sexual health or health experts for advice and tips or ask any question that might float around in your head. Be a young adult that is curious, self-aware, and willing to embrace and understand your body and sexuality in a very healthy way.

And for today’s parents: be a teacher that is willing to overcome minor embarrassing conversations to educate kids about the human body and its sexual organs- make it poetic, explain it with love and beauty. Help our young generations feel comfortable understanding love, sex and sexuality. Above all, don’t let these conversations slide- they really do have a huge impact on health and wellness, self-esteem and self-awareness. Show our youth real pictures (remember that most Sex Ed textbooks still don’t show any accurate images of female genitalia including the full clitoris organ).

Nowadays, looking back on my own pictures of my innocent 13 year old self in a bikini, I see a beautiful, healthy teenager just going through one of the most important moments in her life: becoming a woman. And even though it’s not possible, I wish could travel back in time and tell her just one thing. So, I guess I’ll have to tell my own daughter one day:

“Don’t let anyone ever tell you that you are anything but beautiful.”



*Notes: Although I didn’t get the birds and the bees chat, it’s worth mentioning that my parents set amazing examples of long-term commitment in love and relationships for my sister and me. While people change and can grow together or apart in long-term relationships, they have always proved to us over and over again, that real love is not just passion and short-term being in-love love spells, but that real love requires patience, investment, communication, highs and lows, and real friendship and respect.

(just in case Mom is reading this one….)

**Also note that all speeches, articles, medical publications I listed in this article were from women. This was not on purpose.

***This is not a post that condones sexual intercourse or non-safe sex practices. Each reader should consider her or his own beliefs, morals, and values on sex and sexuality before engaging in any sexual behavior. This article is meant to inspire open conversation and education on sex and female sexuality.

Baked Salmon with Roasted Squash topped with Kale, Feta and Seeds (Luteal Phase!)

Still looking for healthy & super easy recipes for those yogi evenings where you just can’t be bothered to process let alone cook? Need something low carb, rich in vitamins, and without fail, a very tasty treat to those old buds? This is it!

Not to mention, it’s another perfect recipe for the luteal phase. This would be the 10-14 days before your menstrual cycle. And if you aren’t a woman in her reproductive years- just make & eat & relish this nutrient-packed dish!

Let’s skip the questions about true “yogi” vegetarian/vegan plates — this is for those of you looking for nourishing whole foods to replenish your organism. All of the food products I buy are 100% organic and conscientious. However, the conscientious part will always vary depending on the person who is reading this recipe.

Just be forewarned that it contains fish & dairy!

No more intro, we are getting straight to the yum of it:

Shopping list:

  • Organic squash (get a small one to split and de-seed that can be shared between two)
  • Alaskan-caught salmon fillet (or similar: e.g. “Caught in the atlantic”)
  • Organic Kale (a bag or so- it will cook down significantly)
  • Organic feta block
  • Sunflower Seeds and Pumpkin seeds

How-to for the salmon and squash:

  • Pre-heat the oven to 200 degrees celsius
  • Cut your squash in half and scoop out the seeds with a spoon. You can alternately rinse them and dry them in a paper towel and roast them with your squash.
  • Place in a baking tray and roast for 30-40 minutes (check to see if it’s tender). No need for oil or seasonings – it will be very sweet!
  • Take your salmon fillet and squeeze some lemon juice on top and sprinkle it with salt, rosemary and pepper. Wrap up that little doggy in aluminium and bake for 15 minutes.

How-to cook & add the Kale, feta and seeds topping:

  • Clean, dry, and chop up that organic Kale. Fry with a bit of avocado oil (olive oil is also fine) and add some Hymalayan salt & organic pepper. Cook 10-15 minutes on low heat until tenderish – kale is always a bit tougher in texture than normal lettuce. You can also steam it, but it needs some flavour from some light, healthy frying
  • On a plate, place half of your baked squash and top with half your fried kale. Crumble your feta on top and sprinkle some sesame and pumpkin seeds. Place half of your fish fillet on the place and serve it up! Yas!

Don’t forget to serve the other half of all that good stuff on another plate for your guest 🙂

Enjoy & Namaste 🙂

La Historia de Mi VergĂĽenza

Supongo que todo empezó el día qué me vi en bikini en una foto polaroid. Tenía alrededor de 13 años. Nunca antes había ocurrido que le diera importancia a tener que cambiar algo de mi cuerpo, ni preocuparme de ello de ninguna manera.

En esa foto vi una chica algo gordita; con algo más de curva en la tripa y volumen en las mejillas. Yo no era como las que veía en las revistas y en la tele y me cuerpo estaba cambiando. Quizás no era normal, ¿verdad?

Mirando atrás, yo tenĂ­a un peso “normal” (y revisamos que nuestra sociedad llama a la normalidad) pero en este momento empecĂ© con una preocupaciĂłn diferente sobre mi cuerpo niña/mujer. Yo sabĂ­a que mi cuerpo habĂ­a aguantado muchos cambios- ya tenĂ­a tetas y abajo en “mis partes secretas” me fijĂ© que habĂ­a algĂşn pelito extraño. Pero mis padres eran padres muy callados a todo tema sexualidad. Nunca me hablaban de que me podrĂ­a pasar como mujer en los años de pre-adolescencia, esta charla famosilla de “the birds and the bees”. Pues, de que mi cuerpo podrĂ­a transformar para ser mujer.

Quisiera dar mĂ©rito a mi madre en este tema, era una cheerleader excelente y siempre me empujaba arriba. Nunca me habĂ­a llamado “gorda” ni metĂ­a presiĂłn de comer menos o adelgazar. Pero en casa, un gordo era un gordo. AprendĂ­ rápido de ese estigma tan cruel y evidente que existĂ­a para insultar a personas y menos preciar su valor de humano simplemente por su peso. Gorda significaba tonta. Significaba vaga y desorganizada, y fea.

Y como todos los niños, aprendemos eso de la sociedad, la cultura y la educaciĂłn- si querĂ­as desgraciar a alguien con una talla más que tĂş, solo le tenĂ­as que llamar gorda. Los ejemplos en mi infancia fueron innumerables: La chica de clase que metĂ­a con mi hermana tenĂ­a el apodo “tobillos gordos” porque no tenĂ­a las piernas definidas y alargadas; en tráfico una vez un hombre alto y abundante pitaba a mi padre y era un “gordo de mierda”; una de mis profesoras me castigaba errĂłneamente, pues tenĂ­a que haber sido porque ella tambiĂ©n era gorda, y siendo gorda, era estĂşpida tambiĂ©n.

AsĂ­ de pequeña ya aprendes que ser gordo es malo y ser delgado significaba que podrĂ­as ser muchas cosas guays: popular, sexy, deseada, inteligente, exitosa…

Pero par poder entender lo que significa este trastorno de infancia, tenía otros 20 años de sufrimiento adelante. Así que ahora, continuo mi historia.

Cuando vi esa foto fue la primera vez que me sentí vergüenza de mi cuerpo. Me sentí vergüenza de mi nueva sexualidad. Me sentí una extraña ocupando mi cuerpo humano, comparándome con las delgaditas de clase que aún eran niñas. Y a partir de allí me empecé (que me imagino como muchas si no todas las mujeres en este mundo) a preocuparme por como me veían los demás. Esa simple conexión sería el catalizador de mucho maltrato que daría a mi propio cuerpo incluso un trastorno alimenticio muy serio junto a un exceso de escapes usando el alcohol y droga y muchos años con muy poco autoestima y amor propio.

En un principio, durante los años del instituto siempre jugaba fĂştbol y otros deportes. Yo era atleta y entrenaba desde pequeña. AsĂ­ que mi estado fĂ­sico siempre se mantenĂ­a. Con 16 años tuve un novio de 18 años y como un sueño americano yo era la “popular” y tenĂ­a muchos amigos. AsĂ­ podĂ­a pasar los años sin tener que preocuparme de mi peso, aunque al fondo, floreciendo y convirtiĂ©ndome en mujer significaba que otros fijaba en mi sexualmente y que cada vez más estarĂ­a consciente de mi fĂ­sico.

Como cualquier otra adolescente y chica americana busqué las respuestas a mis curiosidades a través de prueba y error. Empecé a experimentar con el sexo, con el alcohol, y con 17 años tomaba mi primera pastilla de extasis. Fumaba marijuana después de clase, hacía bullying a los frikis como me hacían en años pasados, y escuchaba a Tupac y gangster rap para mostrar mi popularidad y lado rebelde. Ya sabes: cosas típicas. Pero tenía padres exigentes y por suerte metía caña con el deporte, tenía las notas altísimas y siempre llegaba a casa al final de la noche con mi toque de queda prontísimo de las 23:00.

Algo importante pasó cuando perdí mi virginidad (¡que no podemos pasar por ese punto tan rápido!). En ese momento tan joven con 16 añitos y con muy poco tiempo con una regla normal empecé con la pastilla anticonceptivo. A un lado, fue una decision madura que tomamos mi novio y yo por querer ser responsables. Pero las hormonas sinteticas me hicieron engordar y no asistían con las primeras experiencias sexuales (que fueron por muchos años dolorosas y extrañas). Así que pasé por 2 años tomando a pastillas y sintiéndome decepcionada con todo tema descubrimiento sexual. Fue esas cosas- la perdición en cuanto a mi sexualidad y virginidad, y un efecto rebote malísimo de las pastillas que incrementaba mis inseguridades.

PensĂ© ÂżQuĂ© me pasa? ÂżPor quĂ© no soy “normal”?

Avance más rápido a mi primer año en la Uni. Me pasé por todo lo típico- experimentar con las drogas, ligar con muchos chicos y chicas, comer todo basura de resaca que me permitía mi bolsillo gastar. Tuve la buena suerte de ir con una beca para jugar el fútbol. Pero el primer año andaba mal con mi enfoque en el deporte- quería fiesta, quería que los chic@s fijaban en mi, quería ser más rebelde, pero sobre todo quería SENTIR. Con todas las distracciones que me ofrecía la uni, yo no podía centrarme en jugar. Así me puso 10 kilos de más y pasaba mi primer año en el banco viendo cada partido como una rancia. Solo me aumentaba mi desprecio por mi misma. Solo me empujaba aún más a deshacerme en sexo, fiesta, drogas y alcohol.

¿Quién por allí podría valorarme?

Mi autoestima consistía en quién me prestaba atención, no en quererme a mi misma.

AsĂ­ iba.

Llegó un día después de estar 4 o 5 meses empezando en la Uni cuando vinieron mis padres para ver uno de mis partidos. De andar por el pueblo me quedé congelada mirando mi reflejo en una ventana de una tienda de ropa.

“ÂżQuiĂ©n era esa gorda?” Me acuerdo pensando. Llevaba un pantalĂłn con cinturĂłn que me daba efecto “muffin top”. Me preocupĂ©.

PreguntĂ© a mi madre: “ÂżPiensas que estoy gorda?”

Ella no me podía mentir. Me decía que me había puesto peso y tenía que mirar como controlar eso. Empecé a agonizarme.

¿Cómo fue posible llegar a este estado cuando yo era atleta? ¿Cómo era posible que tenía esa cara y ese cuerpo? ¿Cómo podría arreglar esto rápido? Porque yo tenía una cosa clara: no quería estar gorda.

Me venĂ­an pensamientos heavies. Yo no querĂ­a inhabitar ese cuerpo rechazado.

PensĂ© “¡Ser gorda no es buena! ¡Ser gorda significaba que nadie me querrĂ­a! ¡Ser gorda es malo!”

Muy cerca de ese mismo día, tuve una charla muy seria con la entrenadora del equipo de fútbol. Ella me sacó un día después de un entrenamiento para explicarme porque no llegaba a jugar en ningún partido. Básicamente, los malos hábitos estaban perjudicándome y prohibiéndome a maximizar mi potencial.

“Lexi, tienes un descontrol. No estás aquĂ­, no estás enfocada. Es evidente que te estás perdida con la fiesta y descuidándote de la dieta. No muestras respeto por tus compañeras porque llegas tarde a los entrenamientos y muchas veces con resaca, o sin descansar. Y tienes mala hostia. Tienes que aprender como controlar tu rabia cuando juegas y tienes que perder peso. Estás gorda,” me decĂ­a mirándome a los ojos sin suavizar ninguna palabra.

Salí llorando. Corrí desde la puerta de su oficina hasta mi dormitorio en lágrimas volviendo a hablarme a mi misma del mismo modo:

“¡Te lo ha confirmado! ¡Eres una gorda de mierda que no sirve para nada! ¡Nunca llegarás a ser nadie estando asĂ­!”.

Creo que este momento me marcó como el principio de muchísimos años de odio hacía mi misma, de reproducir lenguaje abusivo en mi propia mente, y exigirme a limitaciones extremas con la comida para intentar adelgazar. Empecé a obsesionarme con la comida.

BusquĂ© en Google las mejores maneras de vomitar despuĂ©s de comer. EmpecĂ© entrenar dos veces al dĂ­a para quemar calorĂ­as. Fui al super y comprĂ© solo verduras y me forcĂ© comer ensalada cada dĂ­a. Si desviaba de este regimen tan limitada y sargento, vomitaba cualquier cosa “mala” despuĂ©s.

Mi conocimiento de nutriciĂłn fue muy pobre con 19 años aunque comĂ­a muy bien de pequeña en casa. Mi padre tuvo un huerto y todo lo que ponĂ­a en nuestros platos para cenar era comida natural y saludable. TenĂ­amos lujos de “junk food”, pero tenĂ­amos limitaciones adecuadas. Mi madre siempre nos preparĂł un saco de comida para llevar al cole y el instituto- un sándwich de pavo, lechuga, queso y tomate, una zanahorias, agua, fruta y frutos secos. No nos permitĂ­a la mierda de la cafeterĂ­a. No nos permitĂ­a refrescos como coca-cola. No existĂ­a comida rápida ni McDonalds en nuestra casa.

Pero aĂşn asĂ­ ÂżQuĂ© sabĂ­a yo de que el azĂşcar engordaba? Nunca me tenĂ­a que considerar cosas como ‘valor nutricional’ de la comida o que era correcto para mi cuerpo en cuanto a ejercicio. Solo tenĂ­a un miedo profundo de seguir engordando.

Y lo malo es que relacioné mi control de mi peso con mi autoestima y con mi valor como persona. Todo sumaba en mi cabeza (de una manera descontrolada) que yo seguramente no tenía valor en los ojos de mi coach, en los ojos de madre, y seguramente en los ojos de los demás.

Dicen que los trastornos alimenticios pueden presentarse por otras traumas ni siquiera relacionados con la comida y muchas veces están acompañados por la ansiedad y la depresión que en estos años también sufría sin saber que me pasaba.

Yo pasaba por Ă©pocas que no comĂ­a nada en todo el dĂ­a menos cafĂ© y miel. A veces solo me permitĂ­a cenar una ensalada o un sándwich a la hora de la cena en la cafeterĂ­a. Me drogaba más, pero hacĂ­a mucho más ejercicio. Entonces veĂ­a mi control dependiendo de mi peso- fluctuaba como mi estado mental- a veces estaba muy delgada y bien y otras veces hinchada de tanto hacerme vomitar, comer, vomitar, comer – un bucle de abuso que no podĂ­a parar.

Desafortunadamente, pasĂ© muchos años asĂ­, y no siempre en continuo. Cuando podĂ­a “controlar todo”, me sentĂ­a estable, feliz y medio bien conmigo misma. ObsesionĂ© con el perfeccionismo y las mega alta estándares de productividad y exito en todo lo que hacĂ­a. Pero, cuando deslizaba de eso, volvĂ­a a maltratarme.

Cuando me adelgazaba, mi coach me fomentaba mi mejor forma. Jugaba mucho más porque me machacaba de entrenamientos- pero mi objetivo al fondo de todo lo que hacĂ­a ni era jugar. Era ser flaca. El continuo fijaciĂłn de los demás que “estaba mejor y estaba menos gordita” solo alimentaba el pensamiento de que mi valor como persona esta relacionado con la talla que llevaba.

Mirando atrás, pienso ¿cómo podría haber sido tan ignorante?

Pero ese deseado estado de delgadez que tanto quise no era tan superficial. Al fondo, lo que querĂ­a fueron otras cosas. Ser vulnerable, ser vista y reconocida por las multitudes de otras cosas buenas que me pertenĂ­an. Al fondo de todo, querĂ­a tapar mi mejor vergĂĽenza para poder ser valida y amada.

Yo nunca pedí ayuda y eso fue un gran error. Nunca conté nada a mi familia. Una vez hice una sesión con un psicólogo donde solo lo podía mencionar ligeramente, pero todo el trabajo psíquico hice yo durante muchísmos años.

Dejo este vídeo para mejor conocimiento sobre las enfermedades mentales de anorexia nerviosa y bulimia que destacó en Telemadrid. Además está contado desde la perspectiva de gente que padece a esas enfermedades.

A lo largo de los años y tras pasar mucho sufrimiento me iba investigando mucho de mi interior, mucho de los “por quĂ©s” para saber como he llegado adonde he llegado (entra aquĂ­ el tema de espiritualidad y yoga :). El fuente de mi trastorno tenĂ­a mucho que ver con la falta de amor propio y autoestima. Y más allá empecĂ© a derivar que vivĂ­a en constante vergĂĽenza sobre mi ser persona. Comparándome continuamente y mediando mi valor con reglas imposibles e inexistentes. Esta vergĂĽenza y lástima para ser YO fue lo que me prohibĂ­a ser Lexi vulnerable pero a la vez fuerte y poder aceptar que podĂ­a vivir entre lo que parecĂ­a conflictos. PodrĂ­a tener debilidades pero tambiĂ©n podrĂ­a tener Ă©xito. PodrĂ­a sentirme dĂ©bil y unos dĂ­as jodidamente triste, pero aĂşn asĂ­ merecer dar y recibir amor.

Hice una investigación de mi ser interior a saco. Empecé a hablarlo con amigas. Fui a terapia. Empecé a caminar y tomar los pasos para amarme. A dejarme sentir vergüenza pero a la vez compasión por mi misma.

Aquí dejo dos videos muy importantes sobre la vulnerabilidad y la vergüenza, discursos hechos por Brené Brown, investigadora en temas como la vergüenza, la vulnerabilidad, y el liderazgo y doctorada en ciencias sociales.

¿Qué podemos aprender de esto?

Quiero destacar mi historia para seguir siendo vulnerable, pero lo más importante es poder llegar a ayudar a alguien que está sufriendo lo que yo sufrí. Ser vulnerable nos puede sacar de una miseria muy importante.

Entonces- pide ayuda. No tengas miedo a confesar tĂş depresiĂłn, ansiedad, o problemas/trastornos alimenticios o problemas relacionados con la comida.

Si fuera más vulnerable y abierta para pedir ayuda y confesar mi enfermedad, igual me hubiera mejorado mucho antes de esta enfermedad mental. Pudiera haber pasado muchas cosas – y lo más seguro- no haberme perdido años de mi juventud obsesionando con mi peso y imagen.

Y más allá sufriendo yo sola.

LecciĂłn: ser vulnerable y pedir ayuda no es una debilidad, te puede salvar tu vida.

Food for the Menstrual Phase

If you haven’t heard of cycle synching yet, get on this train!

I discovered “Womancode” by Alisa Vitti about a year and a half ago. However, it took me a little while to start taking syncing seriously- especially heeding to all her advice about proper exercise in specific times (I was a wor–out-aholic). It was a gradual change that took lots of reading, research and convincing and finally total exasperation living with painful, long, and quite emotional periods. I decided to try and make small changes according to her book. Now the book has become my shopping list, my exercise regime, and my go-to for tips on women’s health care. It even includes great info on non-organic products for the home, advice about your own skin care routine, scientific facts about the downfalls of birth control, and real testimonials from people who have been healed through cycle syncing.

Alisa Vitti is the founder of Flo Living ( and a holisitic health counselor who has dedicated the past 25 years of her life to studying women’s hormones. She is now the re-known author of best selling books “Womancode” and “In the Flo”. We are finally getting real research and data for women in their reproductive years; real useful, correct, and non-harmful info on what diet plans work for us & how we can avoid trying to live up to the patriarchal system in terms of work ethic. She proves time and time again that all these highly popular diets (Keto, Paleo, Intermittent fasting) and new age work out programs (HIIT, Tabatha, hard core spin classes and marathon/triathlon training) are really only tested long-term on men or women who are post-menopausal!

But, don’t ditch the fad diet ideas or the very useful functional training programs that are out there- they are still beneficial, but only within certain phases of your cycle.

Dr. Stephanie Estima is another empowering woman dedicated to the total health of women in the their menstrual years. She studied neuroscience and psychology and became a doctor in Chiropractic and founded Hello Betty (, a site dedicated to empowering women through synching. She also wrote a fabulous book worth checking out called “The Betty Body” which is aimed at helping women lose weight by better understanding their hormones and their cycles.

If you are a woman who has suffered PMS, has painful, long, or irregular periods, who suffers from infertility, PCOS, endometriosis, ovarian cysts, or is/was taking the pill, or are simply finding themselves out of whack, tired during long work days, or with low libido, you must read either of the recommended books!

With all of this said (and worth checking out), I’d like to give some quick tips on what food is essential to eat during your menstrual phase, and also give you a quick yummy recipe.

What is happening in your menstrual phase?

You are probably experiencing a shift in energy and feel the need to relax and stay home. Your first few days of your cycle you should stay home and “nest” and focus on going inwards. This might be through work from home (nothing social), doing some light upkeep of the house, and basically allowing a bit of lounging on the couch. Let your body rest while you menstruate and avoid any heavy exercise- for realsies though. Your hormones are at their lowest points now before they reset for the follicular phase.

You feel the need for further evaluation and intuition in this phase. Reflect on the past month and use it as a time to set new intentions for your next phase.

What should you be eating?

When your hormones are at their lowest it’s a good time to go more or less keto or grain-free. I happen to do loads of exercise in my other phases and need some additional daily carbs aside from fruit & veg. Here is a go-to shopping list:


  • Buckwheat
  • Wild rice


  • Blackberry
  • Blueberry
  • Concord grape
  • Watermelon


  • Adzuki bean
  • Black soybean
  • Black turtle bean
  • Kidney bean

Nuts & Seeds:

  • Chestnut, Sesame seeds, Sunflower seeds


  • Duck
  • Pork
  • Some beef


  • Blancha tea
  • Decaf coffee
  • Miso
  • Salt
  • Tamari
  • Butter
  • Bone broth


  • Beets
  • Burdock
  • Dulse
  • Hijiki
  • Kale
  • Kelp
  • Kombu
  • Wakame
  • Seaweed
  • Mushrooms: shitake and button
  • Water Chestnut


  • Catfish
  • Clam
  • Crab
  • Lobster
  • Mussel
  • Octopus
  • Oyster
  • Sardine
  • Scallop
  • Squid

As Vitti says, “…eating phase specific foods [there are four phases in your cycle: follicular, ovulation, luteal, and menstrual] supports your hormones to help eliminate PMS, protect fertility, achieve and maintain a healthy weight, have clearer skin, experience easier periods, improve moods, and boost energy.

A simple recipe if you are on your period:

Brown Rice & Wakame Pasta with Shiitake/Portobello mushrooms and Seaweed


  • Brown rice & Wakame pasta (gluten free, organic and comes in individual portions!). I use Terrasana brand from Veritas here in Spain but you can use any noodle you desire.
  • Shiitake & Portobello mushrooms, sliced
  • 1/2 onion diced
  • diced scallions
  • Kombu Seaweed (Algas de Kombu) – if you buy the dried kind, soak them in warm water and sea salt for 10 minutes to prep.
  • Butter, salt and pepper (if vegan, sub butter for sesame oil)

In a pan, heat butter and add onion and scallions. After a few minutes throw in your diced Shiitake & Portobello mushrooms cooking on medium heat for 10-15 minutes or until soft. Meanwhile, boil water for your pasta. Once boiling add the pasta for the recommended cooking time. In the case of the brown rice and wakame pasta from Terrasana- exactly 4 minutes is enough.

After soaking the seaweed, rinse them and chop them up and add them to the pan with the mushrooms.

Rinse pasta, and add to the pan with your mushrooms and seaweed. Add a little bit more butter to separate the pasta as it tends to stick together. Top with a bit of parmesan or vegan cheese similar to feta and enjoy!

This recipe can be altered to add more veg or add tofu for an additional protein kick.

Hope this was useful! Be sure to head to my Instagram page for more info on cycle-syncing (also available in SPANISH!). ❤

New Moon Detox Smoothies

Detox beet root smoothie with Coconut

Yum! Who doesn’t love a yummy healthy smoothie? I used these smoothies as meal replacements in the morning- you can optionally keep all the contents whole as a fruit bowl rather than mixing! All of them are vegan and gluten-free 🙂

These recipes follow my New Moon Detox story on Instagram. New moon is a great time to detoxify the body and realign yourself to prepare for a new lunar cycle. Don’t worry, I don’t believe in starving oneself on strict fasting diets for no good reason. This is purification from the inside out, but please be conscious of your own body. If you are a woman on her menstrual cycle, this is not recommended as the body needs real whole grains and other complex carbs & proteins (not to mention lots of love and rest!). In any case, the 4-day detox involves real food, but mostly in smoothie and soup form. Let’s start with a beet-root breakfast smothie:

Ingredients for Beatroot Detox Smoothie:

  • Cooked and peeled beet root (you only need about half, add the other half to a salad or mix it up in a soup)
  • Season fruit: in summer you can add a few apricots or 1/2 a peach, and in autumn and winter I like to add blueberries and strawberries and a 1/2 of a banana
  • A few dates for sweetness
  • The juice of one lemon and part of the rind (if organic)
  • fresh chopped ginger
  • 1 teaspoon coconut oil
  • optionally add some coconut yogurt for thickness, mineral water or ice in hot weather
  • 1 teaspoon ground flax or hemp seed
  • cinnamon and coconut flakes to top it off

Mix it up and enjoy! There are so many great variations to this same smoothie, altering ingredients depending on the season, or if you are a woman, where you might be in your cycle. You can read more about what yummy foods are right for you to balance hormones in another blog post!

If you are very active and tend to do harder exercise in the morning, the next detox smoothie is great for a post work out:

Peanut Butter Detox Smoothie

Ingredients for P & B detox Smoothie:

  • Small organic green apple with skin
  • 1/2 avocado
  • juice of one lemon
  • A bit of lemon rind
  • 1 tablespoon raw, organic chunky peanut butter (or another nut butter)
  • teaspoon coconut oil
  • 1/4 c coconut yogurt – greek style is the best!
  • mineral water
  • cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon ground flax or hemp seed
  • top it off with shredded coconut flakes

Detox and enjoy 🙂

Feel free to check out my instagram stories for the full New Moon detox!

Defining Relationships

When I was a child, I watched all those Disney movies. You know the ones where the lady meets her knight and shining armor? I grew up on TV programs like Saved by the Bell and 90210 and dreamed of the typical American things: to grow up and be able to drive, to wear red high heels with blue jeans, have fancy clothes, drive around in a convertible, to be a princess. I wanted to meet my prince charming and have my white wedding.

I did, at one time, really believe that these were things I needed and wanted. My life was set up for me because in every context this was the message, subliminal or not, that was sent to me: you should grow up and get married and have kids. Think “Cinderella” and “Beauty and the Beast” or the “Little Mermaid” or any programme on TV- we’re just women floundering out here waiting for a man to rescue us. I played with Ken and Barbie dolls, who of course were a married couple living in my giant doll house. My monogamous committed-to-eternity parents also instilled these concepts deep into my brain- my mother was a stay-at-home mom who took care of us while my dad made the bread. Every white picket fence house around the corner emulated the same concepts.

My lifelong vision of a family was what I had in front of me and what I saw at home, with my friends, in publicity, on TV- everywhere. It was and still is a deeply ingrained social concept.

But was this the life I had to mimic? Was I just destined to do the same: grow up, finish college, get a job, get married and buy a house? Why is this context of life and relationships still so age old?

According to Oxford dictionary, a relationship is: “the way in which two or more people or things are connected, or the state of being connected.”

So, when along the way did relationship definitions become so tightly monogamous, so long term or life-long? When did they become end-of-the-road marriages, or have to include the idea of kids as “family making”? Since when did we all decide we were “meant” for someone else? That we were all destined to be swept off of our feet? Or we’d find “prince charming”?

Hm, maybe all those Disney movies had something to do with it.

After living in Europe for the past 12 years and here today a fully grown, single woman at 37, life has given me a lot of insight on what healthy relationships should be and why our age-old traditional notions can even be quite toxic. Side note: I AM NOT AN EXPERT. But, I really believe healthy, loving, honest relationships, whether intimate or platonic are based around strong connections and the right intrinsic energy- those where you bind with someone because of core values & morals, shared intellect and interests, and where together you see the potential of learning from each other or together. And I will go as far to say that these relationships can happen simultaneously, or if sexual can be non-monogamous, and that we may live any of our relationships out short or long term.

We’ve spent too much time on the “one person for life” tag, that we haven’t given ourselves the leeway to think outside the box and grasp the idea that MAYBE relationships can be very different from what we’ve learned since childhood. Maybe they have a much broader or narrower scope and can adapt as we grow older and change.

This TED talk video by Christopher Ryan discusses the outlook on sexuality and human relationships (based on biological and animalistic history and tendencies). An American author and psychologist, Mr. Ryan has released similar work in his book Sex at Dawn. We can start to pick apart the reason why we’ve spent lifetimes believing in monogamous marriages, when in fact, perhaps we are not meant to be monogamous “animals”.

I knew that something about me was different when my turn finally came to tie the knot. I stood inside a tiny church in the Basque Country with the man I was in love with, about to sign the papers to be married. I’ll never forget the feeling in my gut: “This isn’t going to work out”. It was so clear and so telling, that I immediately compensated that thought with: “Who cares / Whatever.” Literally, that was my second thought. I had been implanting “whatevers” in my head since I was 16 so I didn’t have to deal or investigate the things that I really wanted.

Something very valuable did not come to me until well into my 30’s. Basically after three horrendously toxic relationships (not including the man I was married to), I started to really come to terms with the fact that latching on to people that were not right for me to satisfy some goal that was not even mine was wasting my time and my life. I had grown up and become obsessed with the fact that I needed to be in a relationship: I was willing to be emotionally dependent with all the wrong people so that I wasn’t alone. So that I could make my parents happy. So I could start working on that marriage path. So I could have kids.

But my relationships were ugly. The men were non-committal, not willing to be serious or think about really investing in a life together. Some of them were narcissists. My last boyfriend actually made me believe I should be a different person so that I could have a happier life. What I was used to doing was SETTLING. Pulling the wool over my eyes and letting some other mediocre human tell me that if i just changed something about myself – if i just could relax more, if I just was a little thinner, if I just didn’t drink so much or laugh so hard or have such a hot temper- if I just changed, I could be married.

And suddenly I snapped out of it: why would I do any of those things? Do I undervalue myself just so I could be in some committed relationship? Why would I sacrifice loving and respecting exactly how I am just to keep going on with some other person who was able to rationalize a 3 day silent treatment because they were angry? How much pain and suffering was I willing to endure just to “be” with someone?

Cut to a few years later.

Self-discovery and time off from this toxicity gave me much more than I expected. Through the process of self-realization in yoga and discovering who I really am (with all the scary weak parts), I would gather that something was off for me in how I acted in my relationships. It was time to put all the bullshit aside and start something new and fresh.

Check out this eye-opening video on non-monogamy and polyamory.

I believe that self discovery is the best place to start when finding what kind of relationship dynamic is right for you. And, like it has for me, it can change over time, depending on the person you are with and a multiple of other factors. I do not necessary define myself with any term like “polyamorous” or “non-monogamous” etc. I wouldn’t even say that my next relationship has to be closed or open- it just really depends on the connection and what real core values and synchronocity you have with any person you meet that you wish to engage with.

I would start by asking the questions: Why can’t we define love based off the terms that we find satisfying with our partner? Or our multiple partners? Why can’t women in their 30s feel good about being single (which doesn’t mean “alone” or “lonely”)? Why can’t we deviate from traditional definitions of being in love and real, pure, universal love? Can we stop comparing our path with those who did end up married at 28 with three kids? And can we understand that maybe that’s not what we want, need, or value anymore?

Investigate. Ask questions. Do it with your long-term sweety. Do it alone. But more than anything, engage in your relationships the way that makes YOU feel good.

I’ll leave you with one more exceptional video by Mandy Len Catron about the real meaning of love. After all, our end goal here is always the same:


Tumeric Paste

We’ve all heard it! Tumeric is a miraculous spice that dates back thousands of years in India. Tumeric contains a compound called curcumin which is a great natural anti-inflammatory and a strong anti-oxidant. Why not add a little Tumeric to your morning coffee? Or sip it during the day in the now popularized “Golden Milk”. Or how about adding a bit to curry recipes, warm carrot and pumpkin soups or hot broths in winter?

Whatever the recipe, this paste is handy and ready to add to your favorite Indian recipe.

Because curcumin is poorly absorbed into the blood stream, we need to heat it and add black pepper which can increase absorption by 2,000%. You can add a little bit of coconut oil and cinnamon for added flavour and health benefits too!

Let’s get to making the paste- it’s so simple and you can store it for use for up to two weeks.

What you need:

  • A 30g spice bottle of organic tumeric powder (can get this at most organic food shops or local supermarkets) – see image!
  • Appx. 1/2 cup mineral water (use good water!)
  • 2-3 teaspoons of black pepper
  • 1 tablespoon of coconut oil (optional)
  • Add 1 teaspoon of cinnamon

I literally eyeball the entire recipe. Add all ingredients to a pop and bring to a boil stirring frequently. You’ll will notice that it will start to turn to a paste rather quickly. Once it does, you’re done! Take it off the heat, pour the paste into a glass jar for storing, and that’s it!

For my “Golden Coffee”, I mix up a healthy teaspoon of the paste, vegan milk (I use rice & coconut), more cinnamon and a splash of Agave to a 1/2 cup of black organic coffee. I don’t use drip- I use an Italian Moke pot for stronger expresso. So yummy and a good healthy morning kick!

Overnight Pumpkin Spice Oats (Vegan!)

Yum! This is one of my favorite breakfast treats! And breakfast is my favorite part of the day 🙂

Best made in-season with pumpkin or butternut squash:


  • Half butternut squash chopped & peeled
  • 2-3 carrots chopped & peeled
  • A small 200 ml can or box of coconut cream
  • 1 cup whole wheat or normal oats (organic, not quick oats!)
  • Appx. 2 tablespoons of ChĂ­a seeds
  • A few pinches of cinnamon
  • A couple squirts of agave or honey if not vegan


  • Coconut yogurt or Sheep KefĂ­r/ greek yogurt if not vegan
  • 1 teaspoon ground flax seed
  • Pumpkin/Sesame seeds and mixed nuts
  • Any fresh fruit: I like banana and blueberry
  • Coconut flakes
  • 1 teaspoon of organic, natural peanut butter

Boil your carrots and squash or pumpkin until soft. Drain most of the liquid (leave about 1/4 c water). Add back to pot with the coconut cream. Mix with a hand mixer or if you have a blender (or fancier), use that! Add cinnamon and agave and blend until smooth.

Add some of your blended squash mixture to a large jar and add your chĂ­a seeds and oats. Mix with a spoon. Fill up the jar with more squash mixture and oats until full! Seal tight and leave in the fridge overnight or for at least 4 hours.

When it’s ready, spoon 1/2 c of your overnight pumpkin oats into a bowl. Add approx. 1/4 coconut yogurt (or sweetened KefĂ­r or greek yogurt if you aren’t a vegan) and all your toppings! If you like it a bit sweeter don’t be afraid to add a bit more agave or honey.



Sweet, efervescente, home-made kombucha

Kombucha is a new adventure. This sweet fermented tea dates back thousands of years ago and is known for its probiotic properties. Meaning, it’s good for your tummy and keeps overall digestion happy and healthy. Because it’s normally made with black or green tea, it’s also uplifting, effervescent and energizing!

I’m going to teach you how to make it today 🙂

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